cheers.

here’s to you and me. we’re one in the same. keep your head up and your heart light. i’ll always be here for you. hidden behind hours and miles that seem millenniums. it’s okay. you come here often. not just in my thoughts or my heart. i get it. you, rather. engrave these words in your hands. you could never let me down. i’m not like them. i’ll never come close to giving up on you. i’ll forever be your forever kid. let’s play make believe. let’s pretend you can go back in time and send yourself a message. to what would the content be?

poor girl.

thought the world was her personal play ground. he showed her it was the real deal.

dancing under your sheet to the sound of this beat.

lost myself at the worst place yesterday. the rest of me couldn't enjoy itself. emotionless. i don't really have any words. not sure what to do either. kind of lost the life i used to lead. i think i was heading towards setting it on fire. but it just kind of combusted. it didn't even make noise. it just. depleted. miss it. miss it all. hate the fall. no, not the season.

i know this makes no sense to you but i needed a relief.
and no.
it didn't work.

the only heart i ever knew was the one in the card deck.

can't remember what the old life was.
don't know if i want to.

footsteps on my back.
bury me in this guilt.

i miss escaping from my brain, knowing i had a heart to lend.
i miss dancing in the rain, knowing tomorrow was my best friend.

starry eyes and electric thighs.

burnin' cells.
love sells.

"it's a game of this or that, now versus then."

today i let the shower boil me red. wanted to feel something other than nostaglia.

is it odd that you're helping me get over you?

i'm burning everything i ever believed in and i have your name engraved on a matchbox.

i renewed my hope at the library.

the surreal truth surrounds you. the country is at new. bear trap for a heart. backfired. stuck. house of broken hearts are for gilded ghosts. jack pushed jill off the hill. attention is drawn on a canvas. hijack my imagination. my mood rises and falls like the stock market. (good) riddance yourself of love before it's too late. the floor is dying to be the walls. i'm just dying to be in your head. i don't think you ever even cared about me or this old abandoned town. it only rains inside my umbrella anymore. i wish you were as stable as a boomerang. sharp eyes and rebounded thighs. your love will flow through the skies. how am i supposed to breathe when you keep leaving me breathless?

"you only think i am the devil because i have been to hell. i want to get out."