me versus me: the unholy stream of subconscious.

i don't know what i want. i don't know who i am. i don't know where i'm going. all i have are these things i surround myself with. what makes me happy? i'm not too sure. i need to get my shit together but i don't quite know how... i gotta get the courage, gotta get that resilience. where is my strength? has it gone missing again? has it called in sick? why is my heart so heavy? what kind of doctor do you see to nurse your soul back to health? so many questions without answers. there has to be a trick to it. knock over that domino. light that fuse, blow up the whole place. this has gotten me nowhere.