where was my fault in loving you with my whole heart.

Been hating those I love as of late. Also been loving those I hate. I've not much to say. Took a chance today though. Try it sometime. I've got no regrets.


The night is darkest just before the dawn. And I promise you, the dawn is coming.




... yes. I did just quote batman.

there is a light and it never goes out.

There is a light
inside of us all
And it never goes out.

It dims, but never disappears.
That light, it seems,
holds strong through all of your years.

There is a light
inside of me
And inside of you
And I won't burn out
Until I've lit the skies with you.

I can taste

the blood in my mouth. It's rust. Metal. I can feel my heart in my throat and I can't breathe. For those of you listening-- may day, may day- this is my distress signal. My white flag is raised but black is all I see. I'm making lists of reasons to keep my feet on the ground. Places I haven't been. People I haven't met. Listening to the same song on repeat. "There was never any place for someone like me to be totally happy." It's deadly, but a soothing deadly. The other day I jerked the fake, pink flowers out of the vase on my computer desk and painted them with a sharpie. At least now they look real. Like someone owns them and not used for some bullshit just to impress those strangers and make them think these walls contain perfection. I almost died the other day. Don't fret, I'm alive... but someone I hardly know said something to me when I told them. "What a waste of talent and brain." I don't know if it exists still but I'm still holding on.

I don't think

a good puzzle ever hurt anybody.

Call On New Friends (because) Used Souls End Dormant.

I'm so sore in my heart, weak from the start. (I) told you to (take) me far away. (A)nd I told you to cut me off because I'm feeling fine, but truth is I find it
(hard) to get out of bed anymore. I've moved on, but dammit, I can't get it (right.) You were supposed to be my best friend. You know how I feel inside (but) still you fed me all these lies. There's nothing (left) of my soul to sell to anyone. Do you even know what a soul (is?) Even if you have one, I'm not sure (where) you keep it. (I) think there's too much revenge and angst boiling inside you to fit anything else. They say I (need) to let go of you but I don't know how (to.) I need someone to(be) my escape. You won't, though. (I) need you, you call in sick. The new yin-yang. You (break) me daily and you don't care. (My) life is so short and I've spent most of it on you. You don't (own) me. Or do you? You've ripped me apart, but I know in my (heart) that you don't mean to. (So you don't have to). anymore.